Someday I'm a super bitch, but it won't last forever; unlike you.



Hello the world. It's not exactly the best timing to blog because I would be better off studying my construction or law, or maybe try booking a slot to take care of my micro station & how could I forget science and Chinese? My my, what a life.Life's been a ride on a roller coaster lately, come to think of it. Yet, there are always brighter sides of things I believe. So, what shall I do is nothing but to stand tall on the ground with my head held up high, thank you.

What's best when you feel like you have nobody to rely on, not even your truly self? Call up a girlfriend or two. My babyGs are the real thurr yoll. You feel me, huh huh huh. I feel like undoing all these at times, and do things differently. Still, a liver got to do what a liver got to do. Regardless of whether it's right or non-right. Can't fucking wait to get back home. I'll totally miss babyGs and babyboy, BUT I'M GOING TO SEE MY FAMILY! and shop. and eat. and watch tv. and shop. and shop. super excited can, zomg.

I could study now, but people said that things go in smoother in the morn. So toodles. But, oh wait.



Baby came over today melt melt melt. Watched lots of ellens, crunchies-ed, youtubed, remixed macaroni cheese and of course, livelaughlove. My boo beats down all the boos in yard, damn right, he's better than yours. Love you like I did on day one, and 44times more sweetp (:

You think this is easy huh

How would you feel when you found something you thought all along's special, actually does not even worth any second of another's life to be given effort to? I'll tell you how. It feels like a rug just been pulled out from under you and when you fall flat on your face, what actually hurts more is the matter of who did that. This feeling so crazily terrible, you don't know what actually is real; truth or non-truth. I don't want to specify, but you could. How would you feel if it's not what you thought it was, & all this while, you been an idiot who been deluding herself into thinking that it is what you thought it was.

[ I can take you higher, upgrade; ]

The long-awaited warning emails are finally here. Like thank God, now I can/ need/ must stop skipping classes. I'm sending my lao ya notebook for its' end on wednesday with mr. clyde; home wireless connection would be interrupted, things would get so messed up but a student got to do what she gotta do. Sigh; Anyway, slept early last night with the intention to wake up earlier to study. T'was no avail though, slept back after 30 minutes of hardwork in keeping myself awake with the boiling hot nescafe & the serenity of the sound of the whole world sleeping. Roleplay tomorrow; gotta keep it calm aye, gotta keep it cool. Shit, I'm terrible in this. Rawr.

I been living alone for the past three weeks, at least. & there's nothing fantastic to sleeping to an empty house. It makes me want to just curl on the bed and stare, doing nothing except to try to enjoy the time off I'm having. Everything it would ever do is push me even closer to the edge. Yet, I'm tired of blending with the world. So chaotic, so exhausting- emotionally and physically. Today would be a short day, so you wait for me okay home-y. I'll come back with long john silver and auntie anne's, & we shall conquer school with the small brain together. Thank you for being the best cabin ever. Love you.

Are we human, or are we merely creatures with blood pumping through our veins? Amazing how we live in a world so small, everyone's connected to anyone somehow someway, yet we have thousands different perspectives. Funny how fickle-minded one can get till the extent that she or he forgets that everyone has a feeling, and it's even funnier how another person who's the victim of the public's way to have a little "livelier life" remembers that everytime. Protect the human, the good ones are endangered. Anyway,Week is coming to and end, yet again.But instead of putting my energy to something useful, I'd rather stay at home and brood.I ain't complaining, why are you?

& oh, here are the things you might already know;

• I'm extremely lazy. Like outrageously so, nothing ever matters. Like completely zero, not even the ones I set my heart and soul on. Therefore, if there's anything, don't take it to heart. It's my thing, let it go.
• Technologies have higher possibility to frustrate me more often than not. I always believe the name should just represent its' function; like handphone to phone, and camera just to snap. When they overlap each others', that means new things with less of a user-friendly would show up in no time.
• I like attention, but not too overwhelming or I would get suffocated and not behave like myself. That explains why when I dress up, I would just opt for slippers so I wouldn't be completely plastic; if you know what I mean.
• It gets to my nerves when silence falls. I'd babble and rant about anything under the sun, even the most random thing that has nothing to do with you. That usually is not because I'm friendly but merely for my own comfort.
• I have very a few number of friends; usually just the ones I really like. If you think I'm naive for believing every words my friends said, then you clearly don't know me enough. I take their words because they're my friends.

Zomg, I'll study law already.

It's funny how people can grow up in a split second; you know what's funnier? How it feels like you've missed the whole life of that someone even though you been getting highlights every once in weeks, & the next thing you know; she's next to a strong pillar. And it's not okay, it's not alright because you weren't there for her through thick and thin just like you said you'll be for the silly reason that you're too caught up with your own damn life. Hey sister, you're reading this, I love you; & I'm definitely proud of where you are standing now - independent, wise, stronger-, I've always been proud of you ; but I'm putting my head down with the whole shame on myself covering me like a quilt for the fact that, that I let you to face the world alone for the past few months. You can count on me, no matter what, come to me. Because since the day I decided that you're my best friend and more; I'll stick up for you and with you, come rain and shine, till forever reaches its' time.

On a lighter note, I've done a week of dishes, law tutorial and Construction.Went to church in the morning and bought ingredients after which for my dinner which would be on the table fronta' tv in four more hours. Babylove's invading the kids' privileges now, I'm done reading goodnight,beautiful. Hence, I'm at loss of what to do next other than be a hippo.

YAWN; I self-declared that there were not any construction class & GEMS class for me today. I'm trying this new thing whereby I'll put my money where my mouth is, hence I made my way to the other side of the world to pass loves double-sided tape. In turn, no one really needed the tape, it was all a sham so I'll come to school. Tell me I have the sweetest people in the whole wide world in school (:

Overslept today with a classic scenario whereby in my dream,I was already in school listening to Mr EE talking about things I would not understand anyhoo. Gotten the shock of my life when I was still under the blanket at 8AM. Nevertheless, two hours of school was like double you tee hage. I hate messy stuffs, messy handwriting and messiness. The rest of a period depends on how it all started; when it started unorganisedly, you can forget doing the rest of the piece. I'm a survivor, though.

Went to meet love after school to lepak. Her course is so much fun with lots of things to be done; but no, wait. She said mine's more interesting because I don't have anything much to do. Ugh groan, why can't we human just be satisfied. Anyway, had longjohnsilver and headed home after because we are so t i r e d. It's true anyway, I'm so free that my blog's nicely done right now. Either that, or I just choose not to be bothered about school stuffs. rawr;

My house is completely in an utter mess. Only things that in place are the surprises miniatures gotten from kindereggs that love left. Let's cross fingers love would help me to clean up tomorrow, though unlikely but let's still do so :D. My handphone is so screwed, I can't transfer photos to the laptop so please make do with the older ones. I'm going to chilax now, kthxbye.

They say everyone's special in their own way; but when you've lived more than almost two decades, you'll learn that it would not even matter. Matter of fact, your difference is not as special as you make it up to be in your mind. Because, because everyone is different, anyone would make do not living with your eccentricness and rather live with another's.All those done despite all the sweet words said, promises linked with pinkies and all the love's shared. & just because ...

This marks my 609th post .

I been busy with school. Rushing tutorials to meet deadlines, fighting off my laziness and trying to stay sober despite the amount of energy I'm left with every day. I skipped a day this week, and that was all because I had an 'issue' with myself that I had to settle. A tremendous improvement, don't you say ? Thank you.

Cindy left for hometown days ago, so I'll be home alone on most days for the next a month. I know I know, I'll check the lock of the door every night, fret not shizzles'. The other night I tripped over something and gotten a swollen foot the next morning which constituted to limping till today even. I'll soak my foot again later in iceWATER.

Boo came over yesterday and we 'watched' soccer. Lately basketball been so passe for me. In the sense that I don't get excited anymore watching it. Even with most-unfavoured player the other day, Tim duncan. Anyway, Rafael da silva's like wow. You haters can try shooting sarcastic remarks like pita mcm phm je; But hey, why can't girls nowadays talk about hot young talented guys anymore? So, hey you back suckers.

Went to church today, and the whole thing, the only thing that made me feel better's darling's sms saying she's happy to hear that. I used to be thistight with the One Above, and heck it felt good. I want to go back to that. Mind been playing trick on me when truth be told I was the one who been refusing to care because laziness seemed to be more convenient. No more a' that, now.

Caught up with joanne on friday. I could say thousand words but the main point; I'm grateful of her. Now that I have a little bit more freedom to spend, I shall catch up with all of my girlfriends. Loves of my life.

Done with my tutorials and I did the laundry of a week already. So I'm going to just linger around chictopia.com, and design my support for obama tanks. I'll bathe after, get down to buy dinner to watch with the game plan. O what a sunday.

It's 5AM in the bloody morning, and look what one had to say about me;


you are a perfectionists aren't u; u wan everything to be perfect ; you love order in every aspect of your life, and when something is not the way it should be, you will usually get upset or irritated ; you are modest and humble and rarely enjoys being in the center of attention ; you are quite conservative, but that is only because you prefer to play safe and dislike taking big risks;
you are often very self-criticizing and doesn’t give himself/herself enough credit; you are quite possesive , cos u are afraid to lose your love ones; u are quite stubborn; u dont really like people to be arrogant and vulgar.

... & after that he said for more I'll have to date him out. Bet boo would laugh when he reads this. like HA-HA-HA luh. Today would be forever, so I'm going to drink my chicken essence now and hulahoop.

School was all good in the hood, today.
I'd never liked the advance in technology, not when I have to crack my brain just to figure out how to draw an anchor or a monster, at least. Was struggling throughout cadd, trying to keep up with the rate lecturer was going.
It felt like a hell hole, mind you. But, anisah came to the rescue like jeng jeng jeng! Or I would have gotten my hair all dropping out by the end of the class. People don't bother coming to school no more. That's sad. I'm sad for myself, too.
Ugh well. School's so much fun when you have three people you love, and some people you hate. I would eat my guts next time and bloody hell make fun of you,
yes you. Gotta go now, I have to hula hoop and do my law and do my ect&P and do my circular and do ..
. okay, I joked. I just have to get ready for the concert this wednesday. ( signing circles around my head, and go wuooooooooo in a super-high frequencey)

I'm fresh to death. Next week's resolution would be to attend school every day. I seem to be having problems doing so since secondary two, but all that has got to go right out the window. What would be sticking around is the incurable shopaholic title. Yes, even despite the economic downfall.

I'm waiting for fantastic four to start. Have yet to do my ECT&P and law and ideas. I'm in a deep deep shithole. Ugh well, have nobody to blame but myself. I'm glad I have girlfriends that keep me in track. So, lazy outfits would not be the usual from now on and no more speaking like a barbarian. This is a lazy post, waiting for mr boyfriend slash adilahrahman to call me. Till then, shall glue my eyeballs on the monitor. Adios.

When was the last time I talked about my mundane life? Next to gazillion years ago.

I'm down with anemia! TSK, like how could that be. But anyway, I've forced myself to gulp down a bottle of chicken essence which tasted like what the bleah, so today would be just fiiiiine. Gonna go shopping with girlfriends later, and the usual chitchat and pattaya. Man, it's been quite a while now. Everyone's busy with their own things but at least, we know that we still have each other agaisnt all odds. Cheers to that, sweetloves.

School has been tiring and not constant. Been missing lots of classes, and I dont have to tell you the bloody reasons. With nisah and yiling around though, even the worst shit-hole situation could be made fun. I would like you people to meet them. Yes, they are that amazing, my friend. Modules are nonsensically different this term, but I know I should conquer them for me folks, so will I conquer (:

It's been 17 days and I'm falling deeper each day.